After having three healthy boys, and being forty
years old the news of another child was a shock in itself.
They say some of the best things turn out to be surprises,
and that is so true in my case.
Almost from the beginning of
the pregnany there were many red flags, with abnormal
tests results continually. An Amniocentisis was "strongly"
recomended, along with the consolation that I had three
other great pregnancies, and we should just wait and
see. When the diagnosis of a Trisomy 21 baby was absolute,
the good news was the baby was a girl, I have wanted
more than anything my entire life. All I remember was
hearing "explore my options". I was told it
would be a surgical procedure called a D and E, where
the scalpal, goes through the babies brains. I asked
myself what could I live with more, a child with disabilites,
who would be to some degree "retarded", or
living with the fact that I got rid of an innocent child,
just because she had these disabilities. It was NEVER
an option for me. I was having the baby regardless
of anything and all my fears.
My little daughter has taught
me life lessons that I cannot begin to explain. I see
life in an entirely different way. She looks at me differently
than my other kids did, it's hard to explain. The love
I have for her is beyond words.
My friends told me God picks
special people to have special children, and I was chosen
because of my maternal ways, and that God doesn't give
us anymore than we can handle. Madison has a glow about
her that lights up a room, if you want to see pure goodness,
this little soul has it in a way I have never seen before.
Was I afraid when I was pregnant? I was terrified.
Would I do it again? In a minute. Was it easy?
No it was not. Is it easy now? Yes. She is an amazing
baby who smiles all the time and is happy. Remember
everything happens for a reason and Madison has made
me a better more tolerant person.
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